Tag Archives: God

I Question

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Prayers from these weary lips
Supplications from this trembling heart
Often go unanswered
Night after night
Or so it seems
These eyes lack sight
They do not see past the salty tears

The fate of earth a burden on these tired shoulders
Hope falling with every failed tear wiped dry
Somehow better must be done…
But when and how?
By whom and with what?

The weight of many worries crush my frame
It mocks my faith and belittles my beliefs

What do I believe these days?
Do I believe anymore?
I question life and day I question doubt and faith
I question my existence and its truth
What is my purpose in the midst of hurt that so overwhelms?

Those children going for nights without bread
Their crumbled roofs encircling death & reproach around them
Nightmares overshadow their sleep
Every morning those nightmares unfold in their pained reality

These lips tremble in prayer
This heart cries in supplication
It seeks for hope within my broken center

Perhaps my only hope
The answer that I seek is doing my part
And living in faith

I Remain

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In the harshest of weathers
Brimming fire and scorching tones
Ice chilling cold with rivers frozen over
Green leaved trees brown & dead in their fallen glory

I remain
Grounded and unafraid
Strong & unshaken in my stead
Heavy head lifted high
Purposefully kept high

My heart humbly acknowledges
An old & proven truth
Like days of old
This too soon shall pass…

I remain
Grounded and unafraid
Strong & unshaken in my spirit

How Quickly I Forget

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The truth is I am blessed
Yet somehow in the midst of life
All I feel is stress
Lost in the world of back and forth
How quickly I forget

How quickly I forget the smile on two dainty faces
Faces that ask to be kissed over and over
Then some more over again
Soft dark skin forever blushing love

How quickly I forget the arms broad and wide wrapping me tight
Night after night
Sweetness and good lust whispered in eager ears

How quickly I forget my father’s words of wisdom
Timely and genuine
Quietly echoed with kindness and strength
Sound correction, profound truth

How quickly I forget the love of a Savior
Offered at will to an undeserving me
Time and time again

How quickly I forget L.O.V.E
Quiet and warm
Cheering me on
Leading me strong…

How quickly I forget
How truly blessed I am

A Very Happy Mother’s Day!

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Happy Mother’s Day to all the amazing women out there! You deserve this day, and everyone in between.

I am up early as is usual, and couldn’t go back to sleep;  so I decided to look through old pictures and of course they were filled with images of the girls at 6 pounds or so. Amazing how time flies and how truly blessed I am to be (their) mom. I can’t help but be truly thankful and count my very many blessings. Such a great honor mommy hood has bestowed on me, and  I am sure many mothers will agree.

What is our good fortune but these ones
Who welcome, and celebrate us with I LOVE YOU
On tough hard days
And the many light ones in between
How fortunate we are
These priceless hearts
Beating love and affection
Happily calling us (their) mom

Today as we celebrate all our amazing mothers, let us go the extra step to celebrate them daily…perhaps not with all the pomp and attention today gets but still with  all the gratitude and genuine love.

Have a very blessed and happy mother’s day!

Hello MAY!!!

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I am new…

New in your august array
Dawn spreading joy quietly over me
A blanket of warmth peace and love

Birds chirping to my heart’s delight
A brand new day a brand new month
And lo & behold
What do you know…

A brand new me :)

*Happy new month friends, may it be a great one :). God bless*

Love-Our Solemn Reminder

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Again tonight our hearts are quiet
The distant hope of each dawn overshadowed by hate and ill
Tragedy lurking in the most unseen places
Calculating and callously cold

Lives shattered like frail glass windows
Blood spilling on city grounds
Humanity wasted for reasons unknown
Violence and deadly vile the language of our times…

Yet through it all love persists
Patiently it beckons &silently waits
Till evil is conquered and love prevails

A solemn reminder tonight in the hearts of many
(That) we can and must do better than this

There Are Days Like Today That Beg For A Good Cry…

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There are days and weeks that are longer and tougher than others…and such has been the past week…so it was no surprise when I woke up with tears at the pit of my tired throat.
This will come as news to anyone who has been around me today because I am the queen of keeping it all in; I truly believe as adults there are some things we deal with, adjust, adapt… but today I was worn…

I didn’t want to bother the girls because they are babies and they have been worried about me all week…telling their teachers their mom’s back is hurting and she has to go to the doctor, and asking that they pray for me…the Mr. has his plate full as well…so the adult in me kept it all in…

Today however, it was a struggle and so when I left the house for a training class…I knew I needed a good cry…either of my sisters would be great listening ears…but I wanted to be a child and just cry…let it all out without necessarily talking…so I called my dad.

Truth is I am still his child…I always will be, and so I dialed his number without knowing what I was going to say…we talked for a bit and then I burst into tears….I tried to explain the tears but there was no use…
Bless my dad’s heart, one of his many strengths is his quiet spirit and so he listened as I talked and cried…he let me have at it without interrupting…and then like the blessing that he will always be, he encouraged, and prayed with me.

I didn’t feel perfectly better, but I was grateful for the moment to just be his daughter…his child…not wife…not mom…not employee… not busy…not uncertain and unsure….just a child who needed a good cry and listening ears…I pulled myself together after I hung up and went about my day.

My drive home tonight wasn’t as bad and I was just glad I had a home and loving family to go to…then Tenth Avenue North’s “Worn” came on the radio and I had another good cry…the song speaks to me and just how I feel many days…I guess some days just need a good cry and reality check that I am only human…today was one…and I can’t wait to go to bed and just let it all out for the last time…

Lord willing come tomorrow…the sun will shine and hope, grace, strength, and love will be restored….

3/16/13
7:54pm

Colors (Two Little Girls)

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Colors burst through them to me
Rainbow in the wake of their toothy smiles
Their love (of me) is perfectly peach and purple pink
Spring in the brown of their soft eyes