Running out of words…?
I fear sometimes that an editor or publisher might want to see some of my work (a girl can dream), and I wouldn’t have anything new and worthwhile to share with them. I fear that I might have written it all and now the words are gone.
Yesterday a comment from a fellow blogger, Scott Mitchell check him out at www.evokingthedeep.wordpress.com said: “it’s amazing how you put these great things out daily, I’m jealous :).” Very sweet of Scott, except I don’t know that I put out great stuff daily and even if I did, I fear that they are all finished and I might be running out of words. And so I thought about this concern of mine for a bit on my drive earlier today.
Could I really run out of words? What would I do if I am all “blogged out and there is nothing left to share?” I panicked for a bit and all sorts of thought kept going back and forth in my head.
Since I started this blog, I have pushed myself to write every day, be it something great or otherwise. I have felt so much love and inspiration that I have opened myself up like never before, becoming more daring than usual. But today, I am just empty and at a loss.
I had a strange dream overnight and I don’t think that has helped my thought process today. In the dream, I got a text from someone I had told to check out my blog and she sent this message: “I can’t believe one of my seniors from high school has a blog, you of all people. Your blog is so blah, and more blah.” I think there were a lot more blahs in the dream but no need wasting space on blahs, right?
I can’t shake the dream out of my head especially since a friend told me once that my blog and its contents lacked emotions. I try to give emotions I really do but I guess I just don’t know how… (I will keep trying though). What a big B, she was by the way!
It also doesn’t help that I don’t think I did today’s post as much justice as I wanted to; I am not at all satisfied with that post, but I wanted to share it all the same. Anyways, I have been racking my brains all day to shake the dream off and write something coherent and intelligent that would show that I am not running out of words. Well so far all I have come up with is this… 🙂
not intelligent, maybe a little coherent, and I am posting it now. So we will have to see about tomorrow and the next few days…
Funny how our brains and minds work… I was still racking my brain for something intelligent, when I heard myself saying “as long as I am up and alive tomorrow; then there are still so many words to write, many tales to tell, many stories to share, many lives to love, many mishaps to get into, many experiences to live and relive…so many of life still waiting to happen” and I realized in there are my many poems, notes, essays, short stories, and blog contents :).
So I am going to breathe easy knowing all hope is not lost… There might be a post tomorrow, if I see tomorrow. I pray we all do!